PAPER ROSES

2007-05-25T01:02:00.000-07:00

Goodbye!

Shifted to http://classalove.livejournal.com

2007-05-09T12:29:00.000-07:00

My pearls have all fallen into mud and you're too late, loverboy

theres a reason why I havent been touching this space for a pretty long while with proper entries. suddenly I find it hard to pen down my thoughts. I hesitate.

Maybe, maybe I'll find another outlet to express myself. and perhaps, I'll be back soon enough.

Till then, lots of love to you, you and you.

2007-04-18T01:23:00.000-07:00

Class A Love Affair

After being absent for so long, I can't exactly remember every single detail of my daily happenings but life has been pretty alright. Only difference is the absence of many good friends who are now currently serving the nation. It's stressful how much free time I have on my hands, and how I manage to much effectively squander them away.

2007-04-11T01:33:00.000-07:00

Baby

you always know the way to my heart.

2007-04-04T03:30:00.000-07:00

Memory Memorabilia & Haji Lane Love

Ah, haven't had such crazy fun in such a long time. More days like this please!

2007-03-27T00:21:00.000-07:00

The Sun Is Definately Lovelier On My Side

Tanning and Cafe DelMar at Sentosa with Sihui was helluva crazy. Thank you for everything. You're dope, such a killaaa. hoho. I love you BABE! (thou you bombard my cameras with opp pics HEH! I CAN'T WAIT FOR HAJI LANE WITH YOU.)

Life is fantastic. Stay safe everyone, especially you,LESLIE KOH WEE LOONG my all time favourite.

good night.

2007-03-20T02:35:00.000-07:00

Oversmashed

Movies, B&J, and lots of pictures with the girlfriends was helluva crazy.

So, meet

BEN

AND HIS FRIEND, LESLIE KOH'S LOOKALIKE

today
I had you, on repeat
reel in mind, stuck
just so you know,
I miss you quite terribly LESLIE KOH.

Goonight Loves!

2007-03-17T02:32:00.000-07:00

♥

it's been a long time since I had someone waiting for me outside as I end work, and I've been feeling pretty upset about it because there's nothing to look forward to anymore. but the buddies do make things better :) and I have been ranting to JJ about how tired I am everyday for too long.

I am a brave girl because I'm broke and I'm still spending. okay wait, how can I be broke and still have money to spend. let's just say I'm quite broke now, and I'm going to be TOTALLY broke tomorrow .and if only I didn't look like a primary school kid because i really would like to catch 300 very very much ):

I miss you, like I always do most on days like this.
Ouch.
Good night Leslie. ♥

2007-03-15T00:44:00.000-07:00

Spin Me Around

Right now, I feel like the biggest, ugliest, most gross slug ever. Someone needs to pull me back to earth and help me find back my sanity. The past 2 days hasn't been so nice to me.

I spoilt my entire day by getting out of bed late, missing breakfast with Jie Ting, late appointments, dressed up in some grab-and-go shirt, rushing to town looking horrible and disappointing everyone around by being so mean and grumpy .

I want to go to the park and take a breather. All I do now is walk around with wtf going on continuously in my head.

And now, I'm completely not making sense. I'll look at this another day and think I'm insane in the membrane.Shit.

2007-03-14T03:10:00.000-07:00

Dear ______,
I got posted back to taka. So, I could have my ______ as usual with you, I could still see you _ days every week after school _____. I had a horrible nightmare last night, I woke up screaming, my _____ beat so fast that it almost flew out. The first person I could think of was ___. I didn't have the ______ to ring you up and tell you that I ____ you to calm me down, cause we hardly ______ over the phone. I can't explain this ______, I think about it everyday and it gets so hard to _____ away.

__ _ ____ __,
___ ___ ___ _ ____,
___ ___,
____ ____ ___, what would yours be?

Nobody really know what's happening.

2007-03-13T03:17:00.000-07:00

Is it really all head over heart?

raining giraffes in town today. mad downpour. and the jam was bad as well. but even so, i had fun.

I haven't had so much fun in the longest time. The BBQ get-together was helluva crazy. So, bestfriend and I also finally manage to fork out some time from our oh-so-busy schedule for a meal and shopping today.You'll always be my favourite person to go shopping with ~~lah~~ bitch!

*
Happy 18th Birthday QY! stay wonderful and love that heap of presents from us (:

2007-03-12T03:10:00.000-07:00

Maybe Baby

Sometimes all you need is a supper and company,to make you feel like you're on top of the world (:

and eyecandy, you made it all possible.

2007-03-11T11:28:00.001-07:00

Lazy Sundays, Heartaches and Cheap Wine

The weather's too hot, my heartstrings aren't right, today's a terrible day. I have to hand Eugene the design drafts by tues yet I'm in no mood to do anything. Boohoo.

*
On a lighter note, supper with eyecandy tomorrow. Can't hardly wait.

2007-03-10T03:54:00.000-08:00

Saturdays Are Lovely Days

I shifted that box upstairs, it feels good to be back here but the mess is just atrocious.

The weekend's are here, and it has been a blast so far. Today was helluva crazy. I added two new skinnies to my collection, had lunch with eyecandy, ran all over town with Daphne and I'm feeling fat from those nasty indulgence already.I really need some cheering up from the previous weekend.

*
I want alot from you,LKWL, but I don't know what.Because I find myself hopelessly falling for you.

*
Ok I need to crash, long day it has been.

2007-03-09T03:45:00.000-08:00

Lunch and the sweetest thing

Mommy, half awake from her bedroom goes "You just came home? becca, you're going overboard."

Looks like I've been way off hand the past few weeks. I'm so burned out from the late nights, but every night never fails to disappoint. The friends, movies, company, music, supper and chats. Such a blast that I almost forgot myself.

So, I left Taka with a heavy heart, everyone said something nice, everyone wants the good old time back, everyone gave specially warm hugs today. I hate goodbyes. serious.

On a happier note, lunch with eyecandy. It's been quite awhile since we last had happy-lunch-days. Mango pudding and ban mian tasted extremely nice today and well, whatever it is. You always make me harpee like a harro hamtaro.

I have timecheck, 5 hours of sleep! Goodnight lovers.

2007-03-08T03:53:00.000-08:00

I really want to update, but my mind isn't focused enough to figure out the details of the day, not in a form that'll make sense.

ONE, I can't help but feel inferior and wonder if this is really true.
TWO, I've been spending too much on movies.
THREE, I hate to leave all of them at taka ):
FOUR, thank you honeypot for being there for me through it all.It all feels so much better after lunch together(:
FIVE, LKWL,I really do not know how to put it across to you. You've always been my eyecandy, but something more now I guess. I wish you and I collide. I really do.

I hear sounds of lovers, barrel organs, mothers.

I would like to take you down there just to make you

mine in a merry-go-round.

Love, becs

2007-03-05T02:37:00.000-08:00

okay, so I'm left hanging.

You claimed I was her, or rather you suspected I was Leann. I thought you'd have trusted me more than to said that.

Dearest eyecandy, yes, I did not show you the whole conversation for fear of ruining this wonderful friendship we have. This is not good, you do not trust me, she is scaring the hell out of me and you do not trust me. I can't believe this is happening. Explaining makes things worse yet I can't help but to worry about it.Because I am not Leann and I just can't let you go on suspecting I am.Because this feels shitty. Because I do not have all the time in the world for this. Because I am not such a bitch.Just because I like you, does not mean I have to do something like this.

~~Love~~, becs

2007-03-03T02:27:00.000-08:00

Yesterday, it rained.
Yesterday, the rain got heavier and the night safari trip with eyecandy was cancelled.
Yesterday, eyecandy and I went to Vivo for movies instead.
Yesterday,eyecandy was a happy guy cause he bought his cheap monday jeans.
Yesterday, eyecandy and I stuff ourselves with six hotdogs and lots of snacks throughout the movie.
Yesterday, eyecandy watched the movies for the third time in a row.
Yesterday, we had so much fun.
Yesterday, I was a happy girl.
Yesterday, eyecandy made my day.
Yesterday, yesterday, yesterday, I LOVE YESTERDAY(:

Today, I think I miss eyecandy.

2007-03-01T01:23:00.000-08:00

I must be mad to post the previous entry, I just have to save it till I'm ready to speak to 3 yrs old eyecandy about it.

2007-02-26T19:41:00.000-08:00

I feel stupid.

I have so many things to write about but i don't know where to begin. Furthermore, i'm finding it quite a challenge to even put them into words.

Maybe i'll be back when i get my thoughts straighten out.

With all the love in the world, Becs

2007-02-25T01:49:00.000-08:00

Life has been way too smooth-sailing for me so far. Chilling out at cafes, lots of chocolates and fortune cookies, Chingay, Lunch with Leslie. Too smooth-sailing and lovely, really.

Nothing changes, and nothing stays the same.

Love till the dawn, Becs

2007-02-22T00:39:00.000-08:00

These things that you're wrapping all around you

The past few days were FUN but work was like trash today. I just need off-days, plenty of sleep and more retail therapy to make me a happy girl.

On a side note, I decided to start reading Salem Falls all over again, maybe tonight if I don't fall asleep on the phone.

Anyway, lunch with Leslie today was (: ( Heee madeeee my dayyyyy). I'm looking forward to more lunchbreaks together and well, lunch with him was just L-O-V-E-L-Y (:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:

2007-02-21T01:02:00.000-08:00

Hi loves, I hope you all collected lots of angpows. :)

I think this year's CNY is rather relaxed. Every year I go to lesser & lesser houses for VISITATION (HAHAHAHA , I hate that word really), which is a good thing I guess. Except, lesser red packets maybe? Anyway, I lost 70 bucks this year on In-Between. I swear I hate that game but Uncle Boon got me addicted to it. Gosh.

On a side note, my very first lunch with 3 yrs old eyecandy tmr :)

2007-02-17T04:04:00.000-08:00

I'm a happy girl today (:

Leslie Koh Wee Loong visited (:(:(:

2007-02-17T01:06:00.000-08:00

reunion dinner was great (: mum still whips up the best home-cooked food.

Those tongqiang songs are geting on my nerves. like on repeat mode with wierd versions and the worst are those translated DIRECTLY from chinese to english.RARRRR!

Last minute shopping on friday was bad. I hate crowds and I couldnt find anything I like. I ended up buying a green silk top from Pull&Bear and random stuff at Forever 21.

The only thing I look forward is to collect angpaos, eat til I grow lumps on my body, a few days of good rest, catch-ups with friends, movies with Shirley and Honeypot, and perhaps Jie TIng too.

arghh. okay, goodnight world. have a Happy Chinese New Year. eat all the ba kwas and cookies and nuts and sweets till you grow fat with me!

2007-02-15T03:33:00.000-08:00

All I can say is, supper at the streets of Tampines+ snacks+ singing underneath the stars and the big smack=<3

I haven’t felt like this in so many moons, you know what I mean ?

2007-02-14T05:27:00.000-08:00

HELLO, I LOVE YOU.

Okay, decided to blog while I'm still feeling happy and loved. I'M LOVED TODAY! Haha actually I'm loved everyday but I feel especially loved today (:

Today Taka felt especially nice & warm&lovey&happy&smiley&sweet&hahaha lovely. Flowers, chocolates everywhere, everyone hugging and cam-whoring. We had chocolates, cookies, candy overdose. And the guys were especially nice and uh, obedient today too.

This Valentine's was expected to be boring, and I would be dating shoes instead. Well, surprises after surprises sprang up after work ends. Amok and Mabel appeared out of nowhere and bought me out for some fun, Timothy dropped by with a gorgeous flower, Zheng Ming and Xiong Sheng thought it would be nice to meet up and chat the night away. So there you go, MY WONDERFUL VALENTINE'S DAY!

YOU'RE TOO GOOD TO BE TRUE,
CAN'T TAKE MY EYES OFF YOU.
IF I COULD, THEN I'D GO WHEREVER YOU WILL GO.
AND YOU KNOW I'LL WALK A THOUSAND MILES IF I COULD JUST SEE YOU TONIGHT.
COS I'M THE ONE WHO WANTS TO BE WITH YOU.
WE'RE ACCIDENTALLY IN LOVE.

Thank you baby for all these (:

2007-02-13T01:35:00.000-08:00

WELCOME ABOARD MARIA!!!

I'm so caught up worrying about the posting of poly that not even the invitation to CLEO's 50 bachelors party 2007 could turn me on.

Happy Valentine's SJS, You deserve all the love in the world, but I don't deserve yours.
I do not know what it is about you that closes and opens, only something in me understands the voice of your eyes is deeper than all roses.nobody,not even the rain,has such beautiful eyes.

Leslie, I suppose we should get to know each other tmr.but somethings screwed it up ): anyway, Happy Valentine's, 3 years old eyecandy.

2007-02-12T23:45:00.000-08:00

Running around polys can be such a chore, and I have not finish covering all of it yet! There goes another one of my precious off-days. I'm currently suffering from poly overdose syndrome. JAE! DAE! JPSAE! RARRRRR SINGAPORE IS REALLLLLY BORING :l

I want night time carnivals and upside down rollercoaster rides. I want picnics and concerts and outdoor movie screenings at fort canning green. plus I wanna take a walk down the beach at night. I have a perfect senario in mind when I sit on the water breaker. but hey, its just a fantasy.

2007-02-12T00:25:00.000-08:00

let me in to see you in the morning light
to get me on and all along the tears they come

I wish I could be every little thing you wanted

2007-02-11T02:29:00.000-08:00

3 hours of laughter,an hour of tears.3 weeks to posting of poly, and the peak of my fears.

WEEKENDS! not that it makes very much difference to me though. I spent my entire day rotting at the boutique, creating bad sales, munching donuts and fretting over poly. Oh well, I screwed up my sunday again.

loving you, is so close to impossible.

sometimes I really wonder,

is there a need to be so mean?

what now?

one moment you're here, the next, you're gone.

2007-02-10T02:46:00.000-08:00

FELINA WAS BEING SO SWEET THAT IT GAVE ME DIABETES.

Alright that was random. So, I met beautiful customers, honeypot bought me donuts for tea, we had our usual cam whoring and shots of laughter,closing went on smoothly, the guys popped by, honeypot came by after work for supper, sales was great, everyone was satisfied and I'm a pretty happy girl today except for the splitting headache ):

And to you,

I don't know your thoughts these days. We're strangers in an empty space. I don't understand your heart. You deserve more than this, yes you do sweetheart. You deserve the world...and maybe, I'm not all that.

2007-02-08T02:31:00.000-08:00

you never did realize.please believe when I say I really like happiness.
but it only lasts such a short span of time,
and the drop is sharp and painful.
bring it back or take it away
cause being stuck in-between sucks.

tell me how it's supposed to be?
I hate this, everyday.
you're all so lucky.
so lucky and loved and happy.
I dont for a day, wish to be me.

pardon me,while i burst into flames.
help promised to be on its way a long long time ago.

But I cant excel in something I cant see the ultimate purpose of.
I think I just need my own haven,
security within myself.
I'll find another way.
I promise you self, I wont let you down again.

2007-02-05T01:20:00.000-08:00

It's been awhile since I last spent time with mum and today's chinatown trip has been extremely fruitful (: Anyway,I can't wait to go for work&chalet tomorrow!! as well as results taking on friday.Lots of catching ups to do. Busy week. EXCITING!

Dear loverboy,
Thank you for keeping me sane all these while till you took me as your verbal punching bag. But it's alright, I'm still waiting for you to work it out.

Love, bec

2007-02-04T00:10:00.000-08:00

I slept really late last night, and woke up at 2 plus this afternoon. I stared at my ceiling, with my 98765 glowinthedark pigs, I thought, why not just give it a try?

Anyway I got my hair cut later in the evening.It didn't turn out right, I look like a goody goody girl now ): oh,I started drinking coffee too, not liking it yet, but trying. And I figured dad is faithful to mom because she makes the best coffee and best home-cooked dishes in the world. seriously.

Next time I want to make good coffee for my husband good pancakes for my kiddos.

2007-02-03T03:14:00.000-08:00

okay I am wheezing, I hope its not going to be another infection like august last year. My phleghm can pile up to almost a storey high and I could hardly sleep at night.

Anyway, work was smooth sailing today, I swear Sonia's gonna be extremeeeeely pleased with us today (: and I had so much fun with honeypot cause it was just us maning the whole boutique which means starbucks, donuts and lots of cam whoring.

I guess I should really start living like a normal 18 years old.

2007-02-02T02:56:00.000-08:00

I feel at such a loss. I totally lose it when I looked into those eyes. and all I can do is try to give you everything. something you won't ever understand.

2007-02-01T02:32:00.000-08:00

I'm so annoyed. I hate working in the boutique and I just recieve my schedule today which screams 'rebecca to be at FNA four days in a week' RARRRR!!!

Today could have been a really happy day if not for that piece of sucky news, cause Edwin came down specially for lunch with me and Mok for coffee. Could you guys be any sweeter? oh and you guys are really damn J alright.

Nonetheless, I hope everything's fine now. There are some things I want to say but which I cant, because circumstances restricts me and I dont know why I'm letting these circumstances hold me back, I'm so confused and I dont understand why it has to be like this. but theres no more finger pointing now because I dont know who to blame. I want to rid myself of all the things that's wearing me down.

Don't look back,

don't think of all the places we should've been

It's a good thing that you came along with me.

because you're too exclusive and special and I am nothing but lowly.

On a side note, shopping with honeypot tomorrow (:

2007-01-31T02:05:00.000-08:00

yesterday was good in that I had my friends with me the whole time and I felt loved but something was missing so i didnt feel wholely loved, cause I made someone disappointed and he's the last person I want to feel all this fuckyness from but I cant help it, and I'm sorry. I went so mad I was literally crying all over the place, and worrying everyone. I'm sorry I mess things up for people all the time. and thank you guys for being there for me. esp Edwin.I really didn't expect you to crawl out of bed just to check on me, I swear you've been the best.

Im going to go change into my PJs in awhile,drop edwin a text and jump straight to bed so I've all the energy tomorrow to meet up with Jie Ting. I hope I stop crying because it's starting to piss even myself off.

Im pretending that it’s ending but it kills me to act so strong
Just to gaze in your eyes, makes all the difference to me.
I’m hoping if you know where I am
Send your heart in a telegram

Do you remember like I remember
Or was it all in my head?

but deep down inside i feel nothing like what i portray.shit.

Good night world.

2007-01-29T20:19:00.000-08:00

Yesterday was a night gone wrong.
I shall not elaborate.

On a sidenote, I want to slim down.
Period.

2007-01-27T03:00:00.000-08:00

Work was such a bitch, so was she and the customers. My legs are almost close to breaking, my heart was tore apart and my emotions went on a roller coaster ride.

The night embraced me with an unbalanced mind.
Imagine you are an onlooker looking at a situation, and that situation happens to be your love life. What can you truly see? Can you dissect every emotion? And the people involved, what are they doing to you? Are they making you feel wonderfully blissful or worse, tormented? Some people look for love at all the wrong places. I pose this question to you. What is love to you? That something that makes you happy? Or that something that gives you that drive in life. Are you able to describe love? All these thoughts were lingering in my brain at work as I was walking home. I watch intently as other people’s love lives slowly enfold itself. Slowly, my thoughts drift back to my own. Well, we always hold onto something so dearly and that is hope. This glimmer of hope that keeps us going. But this thing we call hope is fragile; it either make us or break us.

I feel happy, and yet...

if it makes you happy, it cant be that bad.
if it makes you happy,
then why the hell are you so sad?

I guess when something like a soul becomes initialized and folded up like paper dolls and little notes, you can't expect a bit of hope.I'm love with you, would you love me too? because that text proved too much

Love, bec

2007-01-26T02:09:00.000-08:00

I dont know what put me in a semi-reflective mood today, but it made me think a bit too much.

I guess I genuinely fear waking up to find you've disappeared without trace.
I fear waking up in the morning to find you've left me no text or missed call.
I fear being alone here without you.
I fear you wouldn't hold out for me any longer.
I fear that there's someone else.
I fear you forgetting about me.

Love, Bec

2007-01-25T23:58:00.000-08:00

Pig out session with Honeypot today.It was Kway chap&sundae&home cooking&fun imitating some of the people.&&&we walked all the way back home. Guess nothing beats a wonderful outing with honeypot after so long. I'm so glad everything still feels as good and as fun as before.

I think I've gained 10 kg from all that nasty indulgence.But it was a happy off-day for me nontheless :)

bring me to the sea of sugar and spice
reminiscing through some chocolate ice
tick tock take time to be gentle and kind
you sweat cos you run and run all day in my mind honey.

2007-01-20T02:45:00.000-08:00

I have nothing much to offer. Just some pictures of what I've been up to. Besides, the lack of sleep has caused me to suffer severely, I can feel a bad bout of flu coming up.

LOVE & A 584 GUCCI BELT

January has been rather nice to me :)

and tomorrow spells O-F-F-D-A-Y, like finally. I can't wait for lunch date with mum.
Mabel, Choong Hwee, Jason are so sweet, they're about to give me diabetes.
Thankyou for panadol,lozenges&honeytea&lots of love.

So it has all been the same. Random outings here and there, work's good so far.mundane but good, down side is, time is of the essence now.I hardly have time to even hold a conversation with the parents and I wonder why I feel more tired than usual.I seem to be so tired that I can't be bothered to type on any longer.

good night, world.

2007-01-11T01:19:00.000-08:00

Sometimes we go back to remember, remember all the lil things that we did. And I've been here before. 56 times and more.

2007-01-08T01:22:00.000-08:00

Firstly, HAPPY BIRTHDAY JASON! May only good things come your way now and learn how to trick me lesser.heh. Thanks for lunch,panadol&mineralwater&tissues.

Had a real interesting conversation with Mum this noon. And it got me thinking and realising that perhaps now that we've all grown up (in terms of physically or mentally), we start getting lazy and perhaps afraid to be prone to vulnerability, to get to know new people and allow new people to get to know us. That's what I've been feeling lately, I think I'm getting old ah :/

Disappointing or what. When it seems so near, you realise that you have so many bones to pick, so many flaws to fault. It's all so strange that I'd actually be feeling this way. I could just walk away from all these, I have a choice, and I think I actually would. Like always.And all I wanted was a bench to rest my weary legs.My silent heart agrees I have done my best.

oh, and I love you many many :)
With all the love in the world, becs

2007-01-04T02:34:00.000-08:00

JANUARY
1) School started and everything started pretty well.

FEBUARY
1) CHINESE NEW YEAR

2)Family Chalet

3) VALENTINE'S DAY was spent wonderfully with bestie, roses and chocolates

MARCH

1) Class Chalet

2) Adam Khoo's workshop

APRIL

1) Bestie and Kexin's 17th birthday party at Seoul Garden

2) Speech Day'06

MAY

1) Han and I were seeing each other and things weren't that good.

2) Trip to LASALLE

3) Granny's birthday dinner

JUNE
1) I lose myself and drove almost everyone around me mad

JULY
1) Bestie and I lost our minds and went mad at CARREFOUR

2) BAYBEATS with yana, iza and han

3) Steamboat at marina with the usuals

4) Mum's birthday. I forgot how old

AUGUST
1) Day out at sentosa and fireworks with bestie.

2) The girlfriends held a surprise birthday party for me with that oh-so- yummy peppermint cake. and I nearly teared. Thank you girlfriends for that awesome surprise and all those chocolates.

3)Things got messy and complicated. My mind was fucked. I was caught between old and new.

4) Amrita's 18th in house party

5) it was suppose to be Wen hui's 17th birthday party but Lydia and I turned the whole party into cam-whoring session

SEPTEMBER
1) Happy Teacher's day

2) Class outing at RSAF open house and shopping with daryl at orchard after that.

3) Cherie's 17th birthday celebrated at pepper lunch

4) Ain's 17th birthday party

5) The whole class got so emotional that day, thinking about Graduation and decided to be cooperative for once and pose for my cam!

6) The wonderful day when bestie and I went crazy.

7)Han and I patched things up

OCTOBER
1) The day when the clique and I wasn't really in the mood for Biology

2) My chemistry consultant

3) Things was so much better with Bestie and me then.

4 ) My very first time in baking a cheesecake with the B&B

5)Mid-Autumn Festival

6) Graduation day

7) Lots of fun with the art people on art submission day

8) Very first try in making sugared Strawberries

9) In the midst of preparation for the big O

10) The birth of B&B and lots of sakae fun

NOVEMBER
1)Class Chalet

2) Prom Night 2006

December
1) Job at LATTE

2) Christmas 2006

3) Supper every damn night with them

4)Things were good for han and I, we parted for the second time.

2006 had been a fast traumatising rollercoaster ride, with its after effects still stirring within.Anyway, thank you to all whom I had come across in 2006 because in a way or other, you've made an impact in my life,be it good or bad, 2006 wouldn't be complete without you. To those who had been there for me when I'm down and even those who built me up just to watch me fall, there are just too many to name, but I genuinely thank you all and will remember you at certain points of my life.

Two-oh-oh-seven

1) Lots of hugs and kisses when the clock hit 12!! 2007

2)Sheena and I shared our deepest secrets during the sleep-over. Then we got a lot closer. It was darn funny, the process of spilling the beans.

what an eventful year for me.
the new people who came into my life, I'll treasure.
2007, be a blessed year for me, as i turn 18.

And damn, I'm too tired of being in this page. I took three days to do this damn entry. yes its tedious, checking dates and finding pictures! shit, bye.

2006-12-30T02:49:00.000-08:00

Work was uber tough today. Returned with bruises everywhere and yet, my goddamn company was being so unappreciative to tell me that I wasn't going to get paid for all the OT they requested me to clocked in. But anyway, after all that complaining, supper with the usuals was mind-blowing like always.

This is going to sound way too mushy, but here goes. (If only you had a BS account too)

Well, there have been good times and bad times (semi arguing over senseless issues - okay mostly my fault). But the point is, working life sailed by smoothly because of you. Sorry if I had been a pain in the ass sometimes for driving you up the wall with all my senseless talk but thanks for all the times you talked me through things and took care of me. The best present everyday was the smile you put on my face.I have been thanking you a lot these few days but once again thank you for making a difference in my life.Thanks for being so patient, always trusting and believing in me and for all that fun you've brought to me. SHOO JIE SHENG.

And to the self proclaimed FHM hottest babe.I'm absolutely speechless. You never failed to brighten up my day with your super contagious laughter. We've both been very bad this christmas, for all that bitching, disappearing and taking extra break time for sushi and for sneaking bags into the store room. But it's okay, we always make it up to the company by making sales don't we? I can hardly wait for the stayovers at your house and that overdue movie plan. More memories in time to come.

Love, becs

2006-12-26T20:30:00.000-08:00

Jingles, Toasts and 101 kisses.

Settled down,getting comfy at LATTE and toasted to our very first christmas together. I was being very annoying going on and on about anticipating saying Merry Christmas at midnight and giving a kiss after. like MERRY CHRISTMAS!SMOOCH! it went on for about two hours before midnight.

squeezing through the nasty crowd was just really annoying. I really didn't wanna get foam-sprayed at.It took me 45 mins to get from freaking taka to scotts. the crowd just wasn't moving at all. and I got pushed around, literally.bloody indianmen. It was C.R.A.Z.Y. worst part was, I was with this uber big balloon from Kitty and Mabel could spot me anywhere I was. haha

I almost died walking round and round at orchard and partying at KTV.& I died when I finally reached my bed.the night was deliriously euphoric. I love you, for all that effort.

MERRY'O CHRISTMAS TO YOU, YOU, YOU AND EVERYONE ELSE.
much love and snowflakes.
Love, Bec

2006-12-21T23:46:00.000-08:00

I want to spend every single night like yesterday, because I've had such a bad day, created zero sales, hating the hair. because I've to do full shifts almost everyday, because I've sold my soul to the devil for that ridiculous memory.

I don't know if I play things out in my head so much because I'm afraid I'll forget these details. Or I play things over and over in my head to see if I missed out on any details.

2006-12-18T19:04:00.000-08:00

Like the thousands of other working girls, I don't really have anything to say except I kinda miss all that partying I used to do.

I've met lovely people like Charmaine, Sheena, Joelle, Lin, as well as Jason, Amok, David, Aaron, Norlin, Susan, Lina, Mabel from the other brands. I guess working life have been almost smooth sailing so far and I wouldn't know what to do without them going through all those rough times at Taka with me. Sales targets are way too stressful, Sonia's coming down so hard on us, long working hours and spoilt christmas party, still, I'm so grateful to them for doing everything to keep me sane.

And I really thought it might be easier.What do you do with a heavy heart?
He said, "He knows every little thing about you, even how you wake up on your side, thats amazing."
I said,"And you know how I like my food done and all those small little things. What are we doing, comparing who knows more about me?"

Because if that was the case, it'll be neither of you.

I've been thinking about a few things this week- being alone and moments.So it struck a cord when a certain particular customer mentioned what I've been thinking about.People tend to dwell in the past and plan for the future without enjoying the moment, and perhaps I might be guilty of that. Could I do any better to live and let live?

Do the disappearing act for old time's sake.

2006-12-05T15:36:00.000-08:00

Job hunting, Ice cream and lots of fun yesterday.

I've lose track where the sun used to set, when the sky was grey. I mingered my way through the crowd, giving myself away. It's here once again, another long break. maybe not now, but soon. with lil red here and there, I've reach that place I have pull through yet another zone. With them by the side, I grew. Slowly, I shall repay my guilt, my lost. With what I never knew I had.

And on a slightly lighter note, here's a lil gift, interview with Joelle at Fornarina/Latte tomorrow.

2006-12-03T23:48:00.000-08:00

-Curry fish head, tulang soup and Don's chicken pie with uncle yesterday.
-Ikea's nasi goreng, chick wings and spagetti with the boyfriend today.

And I return home a happy girl with a tee, a PEZ retro coin bank and new decorative hangers for my room.

Its been four years.
How come your sudden disappearance can mess me up so badly?
I want my bestie back ):

2006-12-02T13:24:00.000-08:00

Prom has been a blast. Great food, programs, dance and great company.In the end, it wasn't as big a deal as expected, we wasted countless nights worrying about those dressings, spoilt hair and every detail about our appearance when all we're suppose to do is to be there and enjoy.

2006-11-27T21:53:00.001-08:00

And so, prom night is just two days later and Christmas barely a month away.I recall how I spend last Christmas and feel a bland tinge of sadness about how I'm going to spend this year's. Last year, I remembered having a great supper with marcus and present exchange with colleagues. This year, I might probably be glued to a desk rushing out documents.(if only i get that job) However, on a lighter note, GIFTS EXCHANGE WITH B&B!

Onto a bigger suck, time with the boyfriend and Bestie might be so much lesser. The boyfriend might not be celebrating christmas and he just shifted house. You know, I would have thought I've gotten use to this whole you-not-being here thing. But it's vacation time, added up with Christmas, and it's almost illegal to be physically apart from the people you love, especially when it's suppose to be your favourite time of the year. So, this is the part where I am supposed to play Miss Understanding Girlfriend ? ):

How things change in a year. This isn't a part of growing up, it's just plain Time's destruction. And the saddest part is, I can't fight it.