yesterday was good in that I had my friends with me the whole time and I felt loved but something was missing so i didnt feel wholely loved, cause I made someone disappointed and he's the last person I want to feel all this fuckyness from but I cant help it, and I'm sorry. I went so mad I was literally crying all over the place, and worrying everyone. I'm sorry I mess things up for people all the time. and thank you guys for being there for me. esp Edwin.I really didn't expect you to crawl out of bed just to check on me, I swear you've been the best.

Im going to go change into my PJs in awhile,drop edwin a text and jump straight to bed so I've all the energy tomorrow to meet up with Jie Ting. I hope I stop crying because it's starting to piss even myself off.